Angels of the Sun

Last Sunday’s DG was the most amazing & touching session I ever had since attending class at LZT.    MR started off by guiding us to direct our thoughts to connect with the Sun by seeking sunrays to purge all negative energy through our 7 chakras & slowly immerse throughout our body. Thereafter, directing the Sun energy in our body connecting to the earth, trees, flowers & all beings in the vicinity. Naturally, we let our body move as our ling absorb the sun rays and purify our body with sun light. du

There i was doing my usual stuff and let my ling guide me. At first, I noticed some of us started self healing and healing a few others. Slowly, it started with my guardian healer – Angeline who came over to give me some good ole whacking on my head, heart chakra & back. I thought it’s ok, fairly bearable, as the Thai says…maibianlai!   Then, Ah Ling, Wer, Fanny & Val come over, still bearable. Somehow, the real action comes after this initial ‘warm-up’, Keagan came to jiachi my crown chakra, then Angeline, Ah Ling, Wer, Fanny, Val, MR, tajie, dom, jace & others who I may have missed out (apologies here). The healing becomes more intense at this point as I feel my heart fills with great sorrow & despair. I totally surrender myself to the healing as much as I can while the physical & non-physical healing was done on me. In broad daylight nestle in the tranquility of bedok reservoir,  I was wailing,  sobbing & vomitting while my fellow brothers & sisters tirelessly healing me with all the mightest positive energy they could draw from the fountain of compassion & love in their heart. After a long while, I thought things would have come to a close as healers were slowing down. I became the first recipient of AhLing’s Thai kick and I must say she does it quite well for starters,..heee! Suddenly, i felt this kingkong whack continously on my back which caught me by surprise. It went on for a short while and stopped…phew! Luckily, it didn’t continued for long, otherwise i think i would squat down in pain…Finally, it really slowed down and comes to an end. I felt  light heartedness as if tonnes & tonnes of worries and sadness are gone. My mind becomes clearer and fresh like crisp morning sun.  As if angels of the sun has descended upon me

I have never witness such spontaneous compassion before and will remember this day when so many of fellow LZTians heal me and assuring me that they will be there for me.  so touching!!! give me tissue quick! Seriously, it inspires me to be diligent in doing SOP daily so that one day I am well to help another person or being  in need of healing.

Honesty as Spiritual Warrior

Having read the article below dawns on me that I have been unwilling to be see my true self . This reluctance to face ‘myself’ is the cause of all fear and I am determined to continue my practise to overcome it … I know I will fall numerous times during the whole process but i know if i do not pick myself up again and go back to my practise, there’s no chance in overcoming fear ever.. Much less speak of getting out of samsara

Honesty as a Spiritual Warrior

How can we face truths of the universe openly,

if we do not even face truths about ourselves honestly?

- Stonepeace

Becoming a [spiritual] warrior and facing yourself is a question of honesty rather than condemning yourself. By looking at yourself, you may find that you’ve been a bad boy or girl, and you may feel terrible about yourself. Your existence may feel wretched, completely pitch-black, like the black hole of Calcutta. Or you may see something good about yourself. The idea is simply to face the facts. Honesty plays a very important part. Just see the simple, straightforward truth about yourself. When you begin to be honest with yourself, you develop a genuine gut level of truth. That is not necessarily cutting yourself down. Simply discover what is there; simply see that, and then stop! So first, look at yourself, but don’t condemn yourself. It’s important to be matter-of-fact, on the spot. Just look, and when you see the situation in its fullest way, then you begin to be a warrior.

When you acknowledge that you feel so wretched, you can be fully cheerful. That is an interesting twist. You are being a wholesome, honest person. Usually, we aren’t this honest. You may think you can cheat the universe, and out of that, you develop all sorts of naughty or neurotic potentialities, convincing yourself that you do not have to look into your situation honestly. However, when you are just there, then, if you see the actual darkness, that will inspire the light or sunrise.

You begin to find that you are a genuine person. You begin to feel good and solid, and beyond that, more than solid, more than real, you realize that you have guts of some kind. Buddha-nature is in you already, because you are so true to yourself, true in the sense of being unconditionally honest. In fact, there is no such thing as the true self, the solidly real self. When you see yourself genuinely, you find that concept of ‘reality’ actually starts to fade. Instead, you find a very large space there, which is unconditional and contains ventilation and breathing space. When you have seen yourself fully, you begin to feel unconditionally good. At the same time, you begin to acknowledge the existence of greater wisdom [to realize].

Smile at Fear: Awakening the True Heart of Bravery

Chogyam Trungpa

Some Days after Choe Puja

That night after Choe puja, i feel highly energized without much thought to the lightly spinning sensation inside my body, from my head to the rest of body. So i did GYFM thinking that it will help to calm down the excitement and help me to sleep better. But I didn’t seems to have slept…and felt lethargic when I woke up the next day. I began to feel sick, a  strange sense of fustration and angst arise in me, negative thoughts running amok in my mind and the sensation on my crown chakra was growing stronger. So, I text MR who then instructed me to do pranic breathing instead of GYFM cos my body is trying to adapt to the huge influx of energy into my body. So, I kuai kuai do pranic breathing, this time I could feel a numbing, crawling kinda sensation on my chest area this time! wowow00ps! Thoughts of doubt filled my mind as  I swooned over to my hp and text MR again…hoping for some kinda quick remedy to take this strange sensation away from my chest. hahahaaa! Little did I knew that it was actually my heart chakra opening and boy! was i glad that I only did 20 mins of pranic breathing. Fear of anxiety attacks and all sorts of erratic emotional rollercoaster rides in my mind just paralyse me so much! Luckily, it was nothing of this sort/s. For now, I shall continue to do pranic breathing and whatever it takes to narrow the gap between imbalance &  equanimity in me again. MR said to have patience and it’s so hard to do…I am trying my darnest to hang on for dear life , you can count on it!

Lovinggg youuu

What a pleasant coincidence! Just as I was contemplating on lovingkindness after last night TG coupled with a flick of random fingers…MR’s blog talks about the same topic! wow…he can read my mind from soooo sooo far away? Better be careful with my thoughts from now on..kekee!

Most of the time we hear spiritual teachers gave their explaination on metta sutta but do we really know how to practise and adapt it into our daily lives. Actually, it is very simple and easy to do which is just like  my daily practise. Pure & simple wish of loving as it is,  from moment to moment, starting from ourselves first and then expand out to all being in the six realms of existence..I can still recall the sense of calm and peace that dwells within my heart…the  wave of simple & pure love just envelopes me like a mother’s loving arms.   The melody and lyrics just float in my mind…lovinggg you is easy because you are beautiful…dodooooodooo..isn’t  inner soul most beautiful cos it is at its purest ?

The above musings are not purely my own but are reflections of countless teachings from various spiritual teachers who have touched my life in one way or another.

With metta,

Shanta

My first trial run…

This my very first trial of GYFM and not quite smoothly with a little bit of hiccups. It took a while before I finally managed to settle down, then I realised that I have forgotten to do pranic breathing after PJHS. Not deterred by the little hiccups, I tried to sit  but can only sit for 20 mins until the numbness on my right leg became too hard to bear. My sitting was quite easy until I think about 10 mins later… I felt my body rocking gently in circles and my head feels tight. Hmm..not sure if has the tightness in my head is the headache which has been bugging me or energy moving around my body.
For my next practise, I think i will do stretching for 5-10 mins to ‘warm-up’ so that I can sit longer than 20 mins. Target is 45 mins the next time…i hope

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